I have invited you along on my weight loss journey, and after nine months of starting and not stopping, I have stopped. Losing weight, that is. Today was my weigh in, and I had actually gained (a pound of muscle).
The last nine months I have lost 92 pounds. The last 2 months I have lost 3 pounds. What is wrong with that picture? Well, I have allowed a few bad habits back. This is why I have lost and gained and lost and gained for the last 25 years. Addiction comes in all shapes and sizes, and food just happens to be my Kryptonite. Nine months ago, I was at my bottom. I started clawing my way back out of that bottom, and kept my diabetic tendencies at the forefront of my mind while climbing out of the hole. It worked…
For about 7 months. Then my life interfered. Things got busy, I started staying up later, and when everyone goes to bed, the chips come out to play. I have stopped buying chips, especially Cool Ranch Doritos, and I really try to keep foods that tempt me out of the house, but it’s like I have this magnetic attraction to crunchy, tasty things. I have even started liking the boys childish puff corn…what???
But I am not stopping. I have made the decision to live. That is what is going through my head. I keep making the picture of one of my favorite cousins come to mind, my cousin with no feet, blind and on dialysis. I try not to let the people who tell me how proud they are of me, and how good I look, affect my perseverance in this journey. I think on the fruits of the Spirit, one of which is Perseverance, and I have failed in asking Holy Spirit to really ramp up my Perseverance. Life is too easy for us, sometimes. But I know I can do this.
People have been asking what I’ve been doing to lose the weight. Well, I started paying attention to what I was doing. For five years straight (ever since I had Caboose), I just did not care what I ingested. I didn’t read labels, I didn’t count calories, I didn’t look at fat content. I ate everything I wanted to. I cringe when I write that…I feel so weak. I am weak. Weakness, though, can make me strong. I had to have that moment, when I knew nothing could help me but my God, my higher “Power” as AA says, and I had that walking to the Lincoln Memorial with the Hubs and my Monkey and my Goddaughters. God showed me that I needed help from something other than myself.
I had that help. My friend and new employee sat me down and started crying and said, “I can’t lose you. Please do something.” Beth Hess made the appointment that has changed my life, and Dr. Dean Naden and Angela Long have helped to keep me on track. Tina Naden is one of my heroes, she is a phenomenal Mom, a beautiful woman and showed me what beauty is. Dr. Naden has been compassionate and super informative in the weight loss process. He and Angela are never judgemental, never condemning, and they make this lifestyle easy to understand.
I told Angela today that I would just not make another appointment since I hadn’t lost weight, and that I didn’t want to waste their time. She said, “Now is when you need us the most.” I made another appointment. Dr. Naden said the same thing, “you can do this, you are doing this, we will help you do this!” So I made another appointment, and I will START AND NOT STOP!! I might not lose weight as fast as I have, but I cannot be that person I was a year ago. That person who put her own short-lived satisfaction above the well-being of herself and her family, that person who never considered consequences of her actions.
So…please continue to follow my journey, if you’re interested. This is not easy, but nothing worth having is easy, right? I am so grateful to the people that have been so encouraging on my journey, and I just want to be the reason that other people take their health seriously. For instance, your A1C is your continous blood sugar. I don’t have the numbers right in front of me, but anything over 6.0 is considered diabetic. My A1C was 7.3 on 7/18/13. Today my A1C was 4.7. I hate the medication that was prescribed, so didn’t take it; I got my A1C down to 4.7 through a healthy diet and exercise. Praise God.
I am proof that if you think you can’t make a change, you can. If you think it’s hard, it is. If you think it’s not worth it…YOU ARE WRONG! I am going to continue to keep starting, no matter how many times I stop. I have a husband, 3 sons, 2 brothers, 3 nieces, 4 nephews, 3 moms, 1 dad and a mother and father-in-law to keep starting for. But more importantly, I have myself. I love this new life. I have a new wardrobe, new life, and new energy. I might be a tortoise, but remember, he won the race.